Did all of this happen in just one year? No way! I feel like I have gone through magnificent, shocking, radiantly beautiful and quite difficult experiences. The levels of turbulence taking me from increased highs to increased lows and the rapid speed in which they followed each other was unimaginable before it happened.
For years we have spoken about life being like a roller coaster. This is most certainly true for me ever since being on my ascension path. This year the roller coaster must have left earth and leaped into milky ways. I bet you feel the same.
Experiences have been more intense than ever, each one of them feeling like a dimension on its own, and at the same time these dimensions somehow often merged with each other. I have surprised myself, being happy with who I can be and I have met a darkness within myself that frightened and disgusted me.
Let me give you a little bit of an overview of my experiences in the last year. I had many very different functions. Within all of these situations were many upward and downward spirals, many successes and even more mistakes and failures.
Going though all this turbulence I have learned that they are all just experiences of reality. It is more important who we are on the inside. Mind you, this goes for the highs and for the lows. I have also discovered that all of it is part of who we are in this moment of time, while we are not yet out of patterning. We can be anything. When we channel mind, patterning and programming, we express ourselves in the ugliest of ways; when we are and act from love and consciousness there is no limit to what we can be and do.
It has shown me the huge difference between the world of programming and the world of consciousness and it has given me a deeper insight in what we are working on. There really is no comparison. I now have my priorities straight and this certainly has increased my dedication to ascension. Basically it has made ascension real.
I understand the importance of fully grasping who we are not, to be able to recognise this for ourselves so that we can start navigating reality in consciousness, always. As Kwan Yin has often said, to detect and reject anything which is not consciousness and anything which is not based on the building blocks of love, joy, freedom, truth and life. I also understand that the program is so ingrained within us all that it needs to be “burned off” so to speak. To be able to see and let go of the full truth of the programming we have to go through every ugly bit of it, including the parts that were deeply hidden, even for ourselves.
In this year and through all these experiences I gained a deeper understanding of the process of ascension, which makes the process of discovering what needs to be let go of less personal and it makes it easier to simply experience what is in the moment, to not identify with it but to learn and expand from it. It also helps to stay in a more neutral space towards self and everyone around us.
We are also all dealing with the very same matrix, the same mind and with patterning in its many nasty variations. To stay neutral and compassionate while this comes out in expression without judging self or others, helps to stay more centered and balanced. This way we can give ourselves and others a much better chance of staying in consciousness. Energy raises itself naturally, if only we allow it instead of preventing this from happening with patterning playing up.
It is very clear to me that whenever I allow any mind or patterning to play out I basically side with the very thing I am so wanting to move out of. This deeper understanding has put my priorities in order and even little actions that did not seem to matter too much earlier are now looked at before I just go ahead with them. When I see that it would strengthen my patterning and that it sides with what I am moving out of, I won’t go ahead with it. There still is a lot to learn and I don’t manage to detect it all the time, but there is a change in the right direction.
So looking back 2014 was a very full year and although I did not always see it at the time, now I can say that I am very happy and grateful for every second of it. It got me where I am and it prepared me for what is to come. It created a huge change inside and has so strengthened my dedication to ascension.
In the last weeks, via the Ascension Hangouts, the Lemuria Rising Preview videos and via conversations in our ascension house a lot of grand news has been shared about the months and year to come. The flower of life grid, a deeper activation of our ascension path AND the opening up of ascension to all of humanity to mention a few, they all make my heart leap of joy, and although these are big, there is much more to look forward to.
I am thrilled and honoured to be here and to assist all of this into manifestation. Let’s rock 2015, let’s create waves of love and expansion that leave no one untouched and let’s continue to move forward on our path of ascension. I am ready.