Ascension requires a deep choice from within. Ascension is not always easy. It is not difficult either. Only when ascension is a true choice will it create a strong base of feeling, dedication and conviction within yourself. Only then will this be able to prevail in the moments that you are challenged on a personality level.
When you choose for ascension, challenges are certainly going to present themselves because the program of mind and personality strongly has us in its grip; it does not want to let go and will fight for its survival. If the choice for ascension is rooted enough within, clarity of what is happening and where you are going can assist you to go forward with your soul’s choice instead of surrendering to the petty choices of the personality.
As you might or might not know, I have been connected to ascension, ascended life and many ascension teachings for quite some years already, also as an initiate. Still I could get so wrapped up in patterning that my ascended teachers had nothing left to work with. Because of that I was asked to leave the ascension house and go on a “walk-about” a couple of times.
Recently, this happened again, and for the first time I was fully on my own instead of seeking the presence of others who were connected to ascension in one way or another. This time around, the only way I could keep ascension and everything I know to be true alive was by living it as best as I could.
Although I previously made some impactful choices for my ascension path, like letting go of family and friends, I had not left enough of my personality behind. Therefore, I could not always be authentic — especially in my exchange with others. The personality always needed something (love, confirmation and such) to be okay, certain roles or tasks to feed the ego, to have an identity.
I also realised that, although I had been working with many of the basics by reminding myself to read reality through these truths, I still had merely touched upon them. From a spiritual mind level I understood basics like “staying in the heart space”, “being in the now” and “reality is an illusion” but I did not implement and live them enough. The basics are simple, but when you are stuck in spiritual mind it’s easy to think that you are doing it while, in truth, you are not.
At the same time, this walk-about experience made it utterly clear to me that living ascension was all I wanted. Anything that was not ascension didn’t have anything to offer. My choice for ascension became real.
As long as you stay the path, and when a true change of heart is seen, your ascended teacher will always give you another opportunity. For me this meant that I was invited back onto the path to make a fresh start as an ascension seeker. As a Seeker, you are already awakened and you are starting to explore the concept of ascension and what it truly means. You might live in the ascension house for a period of time and you will be given assignments and exercises to work with. These exercises will show you where you are and what you need to work on in order to move forward.
I am grateful for having been offered to start at the beginning again. Now I can properly work on letting go of parts of the personality that are still present and that were blocking me from moving forward. I am focusing on the exercises provided to me and I am anchoring the basics within myself. Nothing else is more important. It does not matter whether it will go fast or slow; it matters that it is happening solidly to create true growth and expansion.
The program, the system and the matrix have been set up to constantly seduce you. So when you don’t implement the basics enough to stay out of mind, it’s easy to lose sight of what you are doing and of what is real and what is not. As such, you create many possible traps for yourself to get hooked again and you continue to build your personality and ego instead of truly moving forward on your ascension path. In my case the personality’s need for confirmation from the outside was still operating, maybe more or less hidden, but surely influencing much of my expression and many of my actions. As we know, you are either running the program or you are not; you are either in the heart space or you are not. There are no two ways about it, it simply is an all or nothing type of deal as explained in Kwan Yin’s article How Real is Your Metaphysics - Part 1.
I have learned from experience that we always choose the space we are in. We create reality all the time. It always is our own doing, our own projection, our own responsibility. Heck, we know by now that every particle around us is part of us to begin with. So when we create reality from a place of resistance, from worry, fear, lack, victimhood and other mental states, we create struggle. When we put in a lot of effort or feel even slightly stressed about the outcome of our choices, we are not flowing with what is. We basically show the universe that we are not certain. With doubts, fears, and stress we create contradictions, which shows up as challenges and detours on our way.
On the other hand, when we have made the choice of what we want to create and fully trust that this will come into manifestation, we are relaxed. At that point we are so certain about the manifestation that it almost feels like that reality is a fact already. We are clear in our intentions, and thus we create an opening for the universe to respond. Then there is simply no way that that reality will not manifest.
Ascension IS possible, for you as well.