When do we move from enjoying an experience from a place of conscious awareness to creating a habitual pattern in our lives?
The former would imply that we’re bringing consciousness to the experience, that one is observing self having an experience. The latter implies that the experience has become a habitual pattern and when we’re operating within the pattern, we’re not consciously aware of how we’re using the experience. In other words, who is running the show—consciousness or our patterns?
These are vital questions for a personal ascension student.
As we’ve written many times, one major task for those of us on the personal ascension path is to look at our mental programming.
The vast majority of our thoughts are not our own. They’re being fed to us and we continue to accept them as ours.
The program is designed to lock us into this excruciatingly limited 3D version of reality along with all of its parameters. For virtually all of humanity, the program runs us without our awareness.
The personal ascension process requires us to become conscious of our thoughts. We’re learning, from a conscious perspective, to observe our thoughts as they come into our reality.
This is quite different than what we like to call ‘going swimming in them,’ meaning getting lost in a cascade of thoughts which take us into a mental space and most often we do not even see it ourselves.
What we find is that the vast majority of our thoughts are negative. They are, for the most part, based on fear, limitation, and lack and it can happen quickly that one finds oneself thinking a cluster of limiting thoughts based on lack, for example, rather than thoughts based on the building blocks of love, joy, freedom, truth, and life.
Now let’s go back to the question at the beginning of this article. As personal ascension students, it’s extremely important for us to be aware of what we’re choosing to experience.
For the sake of this discussion, let’s take coffee as an example. (I know we don’t all drink coffee, but let’s play with it.)
The question to ask ourselves is, ‘Are we taking the substance in with awareness, do we know what we’re doing, or are we using the substance unconsciously, unaware that our patterns are running us?
Another way of putting it is, ‘Are we drinking a cup of coffee for enjoyment or is it just a habit?
A simple tip: take a moment and have a think: ‘Who is running the show?’
Am I consciously, with self-awareness, deciding to have a cup of coffee for the enjoyment of it or is it a habitual ‘fix’ that I’m after?
It’s been suggested to us by ascended life that we ‘play’ with this; that we look at our habits and patterns versus enjoyment. And that we turn our investigation into an art and master the art of having an experience with a substance consciously.
It’s been said that as we become aware of one pattern, this will start unraveling other patterns. (Good news!)
So we’re paying attention to what’s happening inside of us.
Of course, advertising has an impact on our patterns. Maybe we saw a product in a movie or at a club and then at the grocery store, we find ourselves choosing that particular product unaware that we had seen it elsewhere.
It’s important to pay attention to every little detail. We’ve been taught that this is where the mastery is.
Kwan Yin recently posted an article written by Jeshua, during the year 2009. In it, we find the following quote:
‘Consciousness is not a junkie dependant on its mental fix of exchange. Consciousness is complete and that can never change, although it is ever changing and never repeats the same pattern twice.’
So it’s been suggested we ask ourselves, ‘Is it a pattern repeating the same thing or am I looking for something different in it?’ The mind creates patterns; consciousness will always create something new, something expansive.
If we’re not sure, it’s been suggested to wait a bit. If it is a pattern, it will die down.
It has also been suggested that we keep a journal, (which I’m doing), and write down what we do repetitively.
As I’ve put my focus on this patterning, it is becoming easier to identify it when it’s running (which is often by the way)!
Sometimes it’s tricky to identify whether we’re choosing enjoyment or if the action is part of a pattern. One rule of thumb we can use is that if we take a moment to observe self and ask ourselves who is running the show, the fact that we’re asking the question tends to indicate that we’re probably conscious rather than in patterning.
If we look at how we use particular substances, we’re able to see patterning running. Maybe it has to do with the time of day, or the substance is used in conjunction with food, or it’s even dependent on what we’re feeling when we use the substance. These are just three examples. There are many more.
From my perspective, reality feels more fluid lately and it feels with some of these patterns that once I identify them, in some cases it has been relatively painless to step away from some of the patterns. It’s feeling easier to make different choices.
The mind can experience this whole endeavour as compressed and restricted or depending on the student, one can also feel encouraged that the personality is being dismantled. It’s a good feeling to see that there are some patterns which I can drop once I see them. And then as I drop them, I have more clarity about other patterns.
I know somehow that this exercise is progress. Might not be earth shattering realisations but it feels that when I identify and drop some of these patterns, I give myself the opportunity to drop other patterns more easily.
Well, just thought I’d share a snippet of what’s going on with us in the hope that you might find it helpful.
Really happy to be able to share in this way so that we can learn these things together! Looking forward to connecting with ya soon!