“So you can ask, ‘What is the problem then?’
Let me summarize. The problem of the ascension student in the first kakra is one of consistency, is one of continuity.”
—Lao Tze, ‘A Meditation for the Mind’
It’s been a very interesting week and a perfect training ground to practice continuity and to consistently apply ascension teachings.
I am Amy, an ascension student “on the road” with an assignment of Service to Others for this leg of my ascension path. I’m working in a small, homelike care facility in the beautiful Algarve. It’s a beautiful setting for people who can no longer care for themselves independently.
Currently there are three clients and three people working here, including the manager, and a young man in his twenties who needed a place to stay. It’s a colorful experience with many moments of love and joy as well as at times challenging moments with emotions raging high, and not just the clients’ only! This setting, in this moment, feels like the perfect opportunity for me to carry out my ascension assignment, which was offered to me by my Teacher.
The clients living in the care house are all people diagnosed with either dementia or Alzheimer's. From an ascension student's perspective, it is an interesting experience.
On the one hand, these people seem to be less influenced by the 'general' 3D mind. It is striking to me to see the purity with which they can experience their days.
For example, for one of the women with hardly any short-term memory left, every moment is totally new. The view from the garden is so stunning that so far it has not failed to enchant me. At the same time, her surprise and gratitude for this beauty, time after time again, are simply a great reminder of the value of being present in the now and opening up even further to the beauty of these Lemurian grounds on which I am fortunate enough to live.
On the other hand, their altered brain connections demonstrate the limitations of the mind. Repetition for instance, is significant. The clients are constantly following old neural pathways that were very much a part of their personality lives. At times, I do ask myself the question, ‘Am I not in a way, doing the same thing?’
This past week, it has felt that both clients and 'crew' have been riding emotional roller coasters, affecting each other and the whole.
Maybe it’s the warm summer days, maybe it’s living in close proximity to one another 24/7 but there are moments when I am challenged to put the active ingredients of Love, Joy, Freedom, Truth, and Life through the pipeline.
Part of my ascension training is to simply be a neutral observer of any drama unfolding around me and to make a conscious choice as to what sort of reality I want to create for myself.
I’ve seen over and over again that when I’m basically in a good space, when I focus on the love that I am and the love that I see around me rather than whatever hiccups might be happening at any given moment, it’s much easier for me to stay in a relatively good space no matter what little ‘explosions’ I’m observing. How I feel is up to me. Whatever I emit to the clients in my care, whether it is love and compassion or frustration and irritation is also up to me and it’s very clear that whatever I’m feeling directly affects the clients. It’s quite a powerful teaching as it gives me another opportunity to observe the illusion of separation. I’m grateful to have the chance to practice what I know theoretically — that we are all one. I see the truth of this everyday.
Keeping the important axiom of Service to Others in my focus is very important in this respect. The understanding that people are unaware of the many changes our reality field is going through, as described in the Ascension Hangouts of July 27, 2015 and previous ones, and the fact that they are basically a victim of their own personalities, helps me to stay compassionate and find creative ways in which to make their lives a little better, one moment at a time.
I create my reality. Again, knowing this theoretically and experiencing it as it unfolds are two very different things. Since I know that everyone is a reflection of me and I see disharmony in my concrete reality, and I’m affected by it as well, I do see that I still have plenty of ‘inner work’ to do.
For the time being, I am living full-time in the care house, only now and then going out or having other people come here for a visit. From one perspective, you could say that it creates quite a small world. My Ascended Teachers have called my current path and assignment a 'narrow' one. The ‘small’ world I’m living in reminds me of the personality life I have lived before stepping onto the ascension path. This too, was quite a small and protected life. Interesting that in a way, I am temporarily experiencing this again. And I feel it as an opportunity to ‘do the work on self’ needed at this stage of my ascension path. This small reality leaves no space to distract myself from what is necessary for me to see and face. There is no other way than to go right through it all. Are there moments when this is challenging? Yes, and at the same time, I am coming to see over and over again, the gifts along the way. The ‘smallness’ of my current world reminds me to remove any ‘smallness’ in my thoughts and behaviour.
Within this group of people, here at the care house, I can share only a part of what is in my ascending heart. This ensures that most of the time, I navigate reality on my own knowingness and intuition, learning to trust Self increasingly. And it allows me to practice connecting to anything and anyone from the heart space.
As I continue to spend time here, it has become increasingly evident that our clients are literally experiencing other dimensions of time and space. This too, as an ascension student is interesting to witness and for me to navigate our shared reality. A beautiful example of this is a patient to which, every morning, I am completely ‘new’, so every time I see her she asks me who I am. Most days, we move through this experience together without a hitch. One particular morning, after I had somewhat of a challenging time assisting another client, she would not allow me to help her. After applying some of the ascension tools I’ve been given, I returned to her and we had a beautiful start to the day together.
We, the team that works here, are a colorful bunch of people together. Often, at night when all the work is done, we come together, closing the day. It’s fascinating to all of us that we ended up together in this now, living like a family, each in our own way on the path of figuring things out for ourselves, while at the same time we are caring for the patients here. There are evenings we find ourselves having animated conversations about each others' perspectives on life. It’s nice to be able to support each other in this way.
I am also assisting a bright and open-minded elderly woman whom I visit twice in the weekends for an hour or so. She has been diagnosed with MS, is wheel chair bound and therefore needs some help. We often speak about life and how important it is to live and let live, honouring everyone's free will. It’s beautiful to see how she masters her challenges and focuses on what is so important to her, her independence and living life in the way she wants to.
Due to my early work schedule, I have naturally started to wake up at sunrise everyday. The view from my window is incredible, with the sun pouring its golden light over the ocean. It is a beautiful start to my days, in which the connection with ‘all that is’ is so tangible and is the perfect way to 'boot up' and get myself ready for a new day with lots of activity and often many surprises. Life here is never boring!