In the care facility where I’m living and working for my Service to Others assignment, I again have had many days in which I was able to practice holding my space and being and emitting Love, Joy, Freedom, Truth and Life.
We have a male client who arrived about four weeks ago and so far he continues to ask the best of us. His mood and behavior have many colors and also his physical beingness already has shown quite some differences. Some days he needs a lot of attention for his own safety and to keep the group energy as optimal as possible. In short, he then is very slow in understanding simple guiding instructions, cries a lot, does not speak clearly, has his very own - sometimes stubborn - will, needs assistance with walking wherever he goes and wants to walk around quite a lot.
Then there are the two ladies who obviously need attention as well as my general tasks such as cleaning, cooking, baking bread, doing laundry, receiving the pharmacist, gardener and so on. They are perfect situations for me to practice staying in the now and holding the Flower of Life grid in my awareness. I have seen over and over again that only then, everything somehow magically comes together in a nice way anyway.
As I said in my previous blog, sometimes the clients create very different universes. For instance, it happened recently that one of them talked about dividing her possessions between all of us so that we could all have fun in our lives. The joy and sincerity with which she expressed this in that moment was precious.
Recently, a client woke up from his nap hallucinating and seeing danger everywhere. He was sure that everyone around him was only there for his undoing and none of us were allowed to assist him. It reminded me somewhat of what Kwan Yin shared in the Ascension Hangout on July 27th about us being able to step into a reality bubble others had created for themselves and assist them. I chose to stay a safe anchor for him as much as he allowed me to, partially because he could easily fall while walking around and mostly because I did not want him to experience this frightening reality on his own. By continuing to speak about the reality which we, in other moments, had shared together as well as giving him his own space as much as possible, after a while I noticed that I started to get through to him. A bit later, he came back to sit with us and had let go of his hallucinations.
Again I realized how often we do this to ourselves in our own way, seemingly more subtle. I guess from an Ascended perspective, my own examples - of which I have many! - are at least as obvious as the client’s example was to me. Fear and worry also create and they just add such unnecessary discomfort and horror to our reality! It results in us emitting uncertainty and reality and others around us respond to this accordingly.
While many of these enlarged situations teach me a lot about the ridiculousness of the mind, I am also aware of the fact that I am responsible for their existence in my reality and would love to change this and end the suffering.
What was different this week was that the manager was not here. It was therefore somewhat more intense. It was busier and we took more responsibility. It was also more feminine and a nice experience. I noticed how I relinquished some of the responsibility when the manager was back. Only now do I realize that in this week I also have felt more freedom to take more charge energetically and to work more on intuition and in the moment. I will not let go of this. It feels like a step in the right direction regarding creating my reality. I also have been more able to observe my own reality creation. I have focused on how it was possible that some of the things I was in the process of creating have changed and have wondered about how it works when you create reality with others who are not aware of this fact.
Then it dawns on me how easy it is to again believe too much of how reality is presented. As an ascension student, I know that my reality basically takes place and is created in my Merkaba. What plays out more than 1,5 meters away from me is merely a projection on my Merkaba screen. Every time I realize this, it feels like a relief, I only have to change things within and embody my full Merkaba and all the rest will be a result of this! This is another hugely important truth to keep in my awareness. It puts the responsibility back in my own lap and empowers me.
Many questions often come up for me about this topic. I simply love talking about the truth of reality. I am therefore incredibly happy and grateful having our AscendoSphere back online. At the same time, I have heard a lot about reality creation over the years, via the public and private teachings. What an adventure to now implement them as best I can and learn more from experience rather than talking about it. I’m immensely grateful for this opportunity and I look forward to sharing more next time.
I wish you all a wonderful week!
Lots of love,