Thought I’d share the next chapter of my travels through my study of reality creation as part of my assignment of Service to Others. I am still living in the care facility for the elderly I’ve been writing about in my previous blogs. It’s quite a place for me to practice what I’ve studied theoretically! So here goes!
With excitement I have continued my exploration of reality and when looking at my colorful reality from an observer’s perspective, at some point, I just burst out laughing with the idea that for all I know, I could be surrounded by expressions of our Ascended Friends or even of my Ascended Self. And to take it a step further: aren't we in the end One anyway?
Whether it is true or not that my Ascended Teachers or parts of my Ascended Self are around me doesn't even really matter. For me it’s just a more playful way of looking at reality.
Sometimes I have made things ‘too real’ and therefore too heavy. As an ascension student, I am learning to understand reality and how to create it so I am grateful that this understanding finally dawned on me again. It assists me to be more light-hearted and make my every moment more into a celebration, much like Merkaia talked about in her lecture, The Flower of Life Awakens.
Very often, the lovely client with hardly any short term memory retention — I’ve written about her before — is like a fountain of gratitude and compliments. The purity with which she expresses herself makes up for any irritation I might feel having to continually repeat myself. If we just stay in the now with her — as the caretaker, I do have a huge influence on this — she has a beautiful uplifting effect on everyone around her. Her gratitude, positive attitude, and the way she enjoys her reality are simply beautiful. What an example!
Another client often is honestly surprised that, upon awakening in the morning, his surroundings still look the same. It’s pretty close to the way Ascended Life looks at our reality and another beautiful reminder for me as an ascension student. It also shows me how little we actually know of what really happens with peoples' minds when they start to lose their grip on 3D reality. They are then labeled with some kind of disorder but their purity reminds me of that of a newborn baby, still in touch with divinity. It honestly seems that our clients are closer to the truth of reality than many other people and they are teaching me to look at things differently all the time.
The third client is a lovely lady, who only a few times per week hits a wave of confusion. Otherwise, she is reasonably clear, physically in quite good condition and a joy to have around. She loves taking care of the others and has gained a lot of confidence in the last few months. When I met her, she was a quiet lady with low self esteem. Now she often beams and shows great humor. She is showing beautiful compassion. All of us at some point go to a different area of the house and are then grateful for a short while to not hear the same sentences over and over again. This woman is almost always around and continues to lovingly reply to questions with the same answers over and over again. She is also a beautiful example to us!
I have learned a few German songs (all clients are originally from Germany) so well that you could wake me up in the middle of the night and I could sing them. One of the ladies sings the same songs over and over again. And again, the purity with which she sings overrides the repetition. Sometimes I start to sing with her which always surprises her. Sometimes she really likes it and at other times she simply stops mid-song.
The language is another interesting experience. All communication with the clients is in German. Among the caretakers, it is a continuous mix between English, German, Flemish and lately some French. It is interesting to notice how I am not trying to learn the languages. It feels more like I am tapping into a field and I often surprise myself with German and French words I did not know were present in my vocabulary.
As I have said before, I am holding the Flower of Life grid strongly in my awareness. I continue to imagine how it connects to everything and everyone. Merkaia in her lecture, The Flower of Life Awakens, spoke of its self-replicating, self-healing and self-generating nature.
I do not know whether or not I am already able to actively work with the Flower of Life grid. It does, however, give me tremendous peace of mind that everything is going to be affected by it in a very positive way and that, as Merkaia says, “Everything is going to be alright!”
One night, I could so clearly feel this within all of my beingness and I chose to dedicate myself even more to the active ingredients. I have the chance to be a continuous well of Love, Joy, Freedom, Truth & Life and with that, I must have an impact on everyone around me.
It felt like I had clearly chosen for a different reality and I was very much aware of the fact that this, like everything, has to start within. I went to sleep intending to wake up, happy, with the active ingredients in place.
And I did. Early in the day, I became aware of a conflict of opinion directed toward me including the emotional fields such situations involve. I continued to reconfirm within myself that I had chosen for the active ingredients, at the same time acknowledging that the fields were present. I held my space, was not triggered with authority identification, and I continued to focus on Love, Joy, Freedom, Truth & Life. The emotional clouds faded and, in the end, it was evident that all of the emotion was based upon absolutely nothing.
While all of this was playing out, I was able to continue to witness my reality from the point of view of an observer and I realized that my big yes to a reality of celebration and my insight that reality was not as real as I had been making it, of course were invitations for mind to try to come in and play its tricks. This realization strengthened me.
Being aware of my own responsibility for everything in my reality I also looked in the mirror and acknowledged what the emotional fields presented to me. Although in general, I almost never acknowledged anger being present within me, I did choose to acknowledge this emotion and then experienced a release.
The whole experience was fascinating to me. First I saw that I was able to move through it while being able to hold my space. I then reflected on the positive outcome and thus the creation of my reality. Love, Joy, Freedom, Truth and Life are stronger than anything else.
As long as I keep my Merkaba in check, everything else will flow from there!
As Ekara said in his ‘The Six (Lemurian) Simplicities’ lecture: "It is not as difficult as you think it is."
Thank you all for walking this path with me and till next time!