I am very happy to welcome you to this first instalment of The Living Portal blog series, created by ascension students that are "on the road" carrying out assignments and training offered directly to us by Ascended Life.
This second series of blogs was called The Living Portal by Ascended Life for a reason: my fellow students and I are invited to share with you our adventures as a Living Portal for the Flower of Life. Thank you very much for reading this and, therefore, being of part of my journey.
A LIVING PORTAL - I love the title for our second series of blogs! Very often I remind myself of being this portal. It is a beautiful way to put myself into the heart space strongly.
I am currently in the Netherlands, actually really close to where the body grew up. I can tell you that this is an interesting experience. More about this in one of my next blogs.
I currently stay with a lady who, many years ago, visited spiritual gatherings that I - or rather, the version of myself that was not fully on the Ascension Path yet - organised. My friend has a small B&B in the South of the country, which is a lovely place to be, and recently Jasmine Martin has joined me here as well.
And So It Begins
Because of all sorts of bureaucratic reasons that I won't bore you with, it took me quite some time to get myself situated, to expand my reality in the way in which I want it to go, and to start the work shifts to further my Service to Others exploration for this assignment offered to me by Ascended Life.
Creating a place to stay and a place to work, as well as funds, is part of the journey when it comes to these types of ascension assignments. When you are first confronted with it, this can seem quite the task, but somehow – probably because you really have no option to procrastinate – it always comes together. Often surprisingly perfect and easy. I do acknowledge that this is probably partially due to assistance from our Ascended Friends, if of course one is open enough to be able to co-create with them in the non-physical realms.
These moments, in which we work on creating reality consciously, often remind me of the novels of OverSoul Seven, written by Jane Roberts. If you have not read them, you surely should try to find a copy, they are magnificent. Following Seven on his journey, you come across an incredible amount of similarities with what it is like to be on the Ascension Path. Seven would get an assignment to create a certain reality and, as his attempts to do so would manifest a dimension, many a time his efforts would still have some flaws in it that he needed to master. Sounds familiar? It sure does to me! It's my everyday life!
Neutrally keeping an eye out for these so-called "flaws" provides me with the perfect opportunity to observe what happens in my manifesting my reality field. It helps me realise and locate the areas that need changing, fine tuning, and tells me where action is needed on my part.
Because, as I shared earlier, it took some time to activate my manifesting reality so that I could get to work, things started off with me having a lot of time to myself. It was a very reflective boot up period, in which I could neutrally observe how much of my mind patterning was still running the show. I cannot express how grateful I am to have had this period of acute observation, and it again reminds me how delays are always perfect when seen as the synchronicity that they truly are.
Looking back, this start up time allowed me to make new choices, one being my decision that I will be grounded, deep-rooted, and stable, during the entirety of this new assignment.
Out Of This World
The start of this series beautifully aligns with a new chapter in my Service to Others assignment.
When opportunities for work shifts finally started coming in, one of the jobs I was invited for would mean a two hour trip both ways each time. I couldn't care less... the sound of it made my heart skip a beat in joy! I was being offered a chance to experience working with teenagers labeled within the autistic spectrum. As some of you may know, this type of work has always been a passion of mine. There is something to these precious and unique beings, which is so pure that it is difficult to put into words. They are literally out of this world.
Often, if you are willing to listen, their hearts are more open and their minds closer to the truth than many others.
Autism is called a disorder in the medical industry; I am not so certain that it is. From my perspective, what these precious beings have come to show us may very well be part of the next steps in human evolution. A range of difficult situations is created only because these beautiful beings are forced to cope with the reality field that we call our world, our society; a reality that is miles below their level of consciousness. Autism is a vibrational mismatch, not a mental or neurological disorder.
I went ahead and accepted the shift and the travel time along with it. Because of this one encounter, the team that invited me in, feeling it was as perfect a match than I felt it was, asked me to come back more often. I ended up working with autistic kids a lot, and I will for some time to come. I am part of a base team and have been given the main responsibility for two of the teenagers that live here.
It is truly a wonderful opportunity. In my personality life, I had a similar job years ago; I have the skills and the passion for it. Now I have the opportunity to add my developing ascending skills to this and assist these evolved beings in a way I never have been able to before, since I did not have the in-depth knowledge about autism and multi dimensionality and reality creation that I have gained. Now I see things with different eyes and on a different level of awareness and consciousness... and I hope to learn a lot in the process.
Finding the MerKaBa Way
This new responsibility soon created the first alert in my system.
As I started work, I received a ton of new information; things to remember, important steps to carry out daily. There is so much that has to be arranged when it comes to the day to day needs of these amazing kids, and I was trying to hold all of it together in my head.
It was my intention to take all of it on board in a new way. To do so, I needed to change some of my internal settings!
One night, the mind kept presenting me with everything I needed to remember. Over and over again. Not in a worrisome way, not at all. We all know the mind does a good job of hiding its true intentions... and as such I know what is happening when I literally can feel my mind wants to keep running when I am trying to fall asleep. I can feel the thoughts buzzing around and going round in circles in my head and it alerts me that I am being invited into a closed - and most likely narrowing - loop of external thoughts.
Thoughts that aren't mine... nope, certainly not the way to go!
I am learning to consciously create reality and this is also what I want to do with the tasks at hand.
So I found a new way. I call it "doing it MerKaBa style!"
To do this, I need to fully encompass what I need to take care of first. Then I know what I am taking charge of and can take action when the time is right. More and more I am experiencing this as a wave of opportunity that comes by. Using these waves creates the most beautiful of scenarios.
Little miracles are happening already.
I could probably end up writing a book if I start sharing all of my beautiful experiences with these new Earth beings... and maybe one day I will.
During my first shift in a group, a fourteen year old young man connects to me while I am reading up on some of his information. We get into a nice talk and he explains to me some of the tools that assist him to cope better with reality.
The colleague I had been assigned to work with, shared later on that he was baffled. He could hardly believe what he had just witnessed. He had been working with the fourteen year old for some time. Normally, when the boy needs to face new people who come to work here, they are happy and proud if he exchanges one or two words with them.
Another really nice experience I’ll share:
Some time later, an 18 year old boy, who gave me a private accordion presentation earlier on, invited me to go outside with him, for a walk. I asked him if he was going to put on his shoes. He replied that walking barefoot actually was really healthy and that he felt closer to nature this way.
He told me that he needs this; it helps him when he has difficulty coping. I almost hugged him.
Many of the teenagers living here have a high IQ, a fact which makes for very interesting conversations, in which they often show that they look at situations from surprising perspectives and question a lot what many people take for granted.
I feel blessed to be able to share this time with them; I feel blessed to be able to connect to them.
When a moment of true connection happens, often through a look, I feel my heart skip a beat and expand. In their surprised eyes and through their (sometimes shy) smile, I read that they can feel it too.
As you can probably read in between the lines, I am very happy with this task, what a beautiful exploration of Service to Others this is and will be.
I look forward to be sharing with you again. Thank you for your interest in my journey.