As you might know, my last "Service to Others" assignment took place in the breathtakingly beautiful Sierra Nevada.
A very remote farm stuck at the beginning of the 20th century; a farmer who was a master in displaying a plethora of archetypes; shifting realities (one day an apple tree is laden with fruit, and the day after there never was an apple on the tree to begin with…), and a whole week in which a chain of events kept looping in almost the exact same way… The reality bubble I had created there was literally making me experience what was going on inside my head like never before.
That space really taught me to look at the realities I create in a different way. It became my stage where I could see magnified in people, places, and events where I was stuck in mental realms and unconscious aspects. Especially now that I have gained some ‘distance’ from that experience, the picture has become clearer still.
Like Ekara said in The Ascended Senses, once we learn to use our (energetic) senses the way they were originally designed to, our reality bubble becomes an open book, a study guide, if you will, which tells us where we’re at – ‘positive’ and ‘negative’ – and which parts of ourselves we still need to acknowledge and course correct.
Sometimes I slip and stumble when I let go of my focus and I fall back into default mode. When learning to navigate a completely new reality, following a wrong path does happen. The important thing is to get right back on track again and keep going. So I keep working on staying seated in the audience and watch the play of my manifested thoughts from a distance.
(Now I know why Gaia said, back in 2010, jokingly, in a presentation called Gaia on the Rocks with a Twist of Lemon, "You are our entertainment.")
This really is where the fun starts kicking in! The more I see and understand, the more excited I become to know more. As such, I become more focused on reading my reality – and I’m on the up.
Ascended Life has only been telling us this for eons, but until I actually got off my backside and put the theory into practice, nothing much changed. As I wrote in my last blog, it took me a while to get over myself. Like Nakho Bear said in his beautiful song Aloha Ke Akua:
“I go back and forth every single day. The clarity comes to me in a choppy way.”
And so it did.
My reality does feel different now. It’s very subtle and hard to describe really. I can marvel at small things. A basket of violets smiling at me; getting lost in the intensity of their colors and beautiful geometry. The smell of spring. Two happy dogs running around in the park. Things like that just make me smile. The innocent joy of a child is making itself known again.
I smile at the world and the world smiles back. (Did I hear someone say, “Duh?”)
My Service to Others assignment here in Holland gives me the chance to spread the Flower of Life in peoples’ own homes while I do the ‘jobs’ they don’t have time for themselves. To let them know where to find me, I had a stack of cards printed which I distributed all over town. While I was going from one home, store, hairdresser etc. to the next, I realized I wasn’t handing out my card or putting them through mailboxes at all. It wasn’t about the text on those cards anymore. What I felt was that with every card, the Flower of Life fluttered into another shop or home, handed over by me personally or softly landing on a doormat. And I imagined the geometry expanding…
What finally pulled me out of whatever it was I was wallowing in, was excitement. Suddenly, everything had become an adventure again – like it should have been to begin with, and always has been for that matter. I just couldn’t see it that way – um, didn’t want to, would be more honest. Anyway, all of a sudden I could feel the butterflies in my stomach again. I remembered what it felt like to watch the sun rise over the Sierra Mountains, and the gratitude, that washed over me when Hono Leia – bathed in this wonderful golden light – kissed my reality and me with her first rays, filled my being again.
Such is the power of an akeneic moment. We can always go back to it and experience it again and again. For me, remembering such moments, mostly makes me drop right back into the heart space. And there are many to choose from!
Adamus, in his talk The Principles of the Now, Part 2 & 3, speaks so honestly about his ascension path, how he thought that if he would just cram his brain with knowledge and truth, he would be the universe and be able to define his own ascension. He did, but he missed out on joy, which, he said, was his greatest sadness (for lack of a better word).
That really struck a chord, as it was so very recognizable. A lot of mental processes have been involved in my ascension path thus far, but I’m starting to really experience that the only way to make ascension real is through the heart space.
The active ingredient of joy fuels the excitement to see everything as the adventure that it truly is. Having a fellow student right next to me who embodies that excitement most of the time because she is actively working with the exercises and sees the expansive results thereof, has been and still is a true inspiration for me and an incentive not to drop my awareness and increase my focus even more.
“Go and ponder by a brook. Go and sit on top of a mountain. Go and sit in a field during a raging storm. Open your mouth and drink the rain. Get up before the sun and watch the splendor of the birthing sky. Watch the sky become rose and hues of gold, and watch the last relentless star lose favor to a greater light. I want you to live.”
– Ramtha, Love Yourself Into Life, The Magic Book
I could have quoted any of the Ascended Beings. It’s been said over and over again by all of Ascended Life. It truly is about celebrating life, celebrating the fact that we can make a difference, that we ARE the difference; that we are here to spread love and kindness.
We have come to this Earth in this, our top life, to be a living portal unto this beautiful planet and its inhabitants. It really is the most amazing and honorable task I can imagine.
The reality bubble I create is my stage, so the play better be worth watching!
I love you,